As if today wasn’t already off to a crappy start. My Nana passed away.
That’s an old picture, but really the only one I could find – our house warming party, summer 2005 – back when she was starting to loose her hair from chemo…look at how tiny Jackson was (9 or 12 weeks, maybe!)
She hadn’t been doing well for a while. We all knew this. And she stopped the chemo treatments around Christmas. We all knew this. I’m glad she doesn’t have to deal with the side effects and not feeling well and all that cancer crap. I’m glad she will be with Grampa again. But it still sucks. We were close. I respect her so much, even with her quirks about leaving appliances on and how much she worried. She was a role model for me – strong, stubborn, independent Irish-American gal. She read, she cooked, she got herself into the digital age (she was on email and netflixed with the best of them!) and was not afraid to have fun or let Grampa talk her into doing something silly.
Services won’t be until next week. Nana is a “sponsor” of our Ireland trip – she made it possible, so we’re still planning to go. It will be bittersweet. I feel bad about not being there for the services, but I think she would want us to go.
This seems to be the nutmegknitter’s blog of doom lately.